51 days.First football game at the University of Maryland.

52 days.

Balcony of Dorchester. This was taken less than two weeks after we moved in. I still talk to most of the people in this picture, but only really stayed close with one of them. We never went back on that balcony, much less into that dorm, ever again.

53 days from right now, I’ll have already graduated. So, to honor the month and a half remaining, I’m going to try and come up with a 50 day photo challenge. By challenge, I mean they’ll be going in chronological order, and day 53 will hopefully be a photo of graduation (if I make it that far)

This picture showed up first when I went back through Facebook, and was the night we moved in, so I’ll go out on a limb and say it was the first photo taken of me at UMD. I never wanted to see PBJ again.

I want to go see the world. How do I find a job overseas?

One hundred and twenty one days from right now, I will be sitting in my college graduation. after 12 years of school in Bloomfield, and another four years at UMD, I will be out of the education system for what is probably the last time. While I’m sitting here at work for what feels like forever (oh lord how can I still have two hours left?) I’m pondering everything. The past, the present, and the future. Somehow, none of these are very reassuring anymore.

I’ve decided that most people in the present are running in one way or another. People are either wishing they could run back to the past, to what they thought was a better time, a better place and a better life, or they are looking ahead, and wishing they could run to a place in the future where things are yet to be determined. At various times in the past four years, I have desired both. But now, I’m putting on the brakes. There is no way in hell I want to be running toward the future now… there’s only uncertainty ahead at the moment. And I think, at this moment, I have reached the point where I don’t want to run back into the past. If I spend too much time focusing on what’s already happened, what will I have to look back on five years from now?

So this is my pledge, to myself. I have 121 days to give myself something to look back on. They aren’t all going to be good days. Heck, tomorrow night not be a good day. Or next Tuesday. Or April 19th. Any day can be a bad day… but this time around, I’m going to be all about the good.

thebalance:

Alicia M., “Northern Wind (City and Colour cover)”

It occurred to me today that I love this song so very dearly.

So I JUST learned it.  Like a half hour ago. so.. bear with me. but I’m too excited that I learned it not to post it.  Recorded on my iPhone. And this is what I look like today.

:)

Amazing

While it is taking me a lot of time to do these letters, the feeling I am getting when each one is done, when I tell each person how I feel, is amazing. Five more done.

I recently changed my Lenten promise(?) and decided to dedicate my time to doing something special, rather than just giving something up.

It’s proven to be a little difficult thus far, though once I get into a groove I think it will become easier. I made a list of 40 people who I felt it was pertinent to write a letter to, and I will write one letter a day until Good Friday. Mailing them will definitely be the hardest part.

So far, I have finished two (M, A1)… one was hard, because it was the first one. The second was hard because of who it was to. It will probably end up being the most difficult one I had to write. (NOTE: I let the computer choose the order)

I’m back-logged roughly two days right now, but hoping to catch up.